I recently read through an old journal of mine. I have been reading a lot lately. Reading books, blogs, Instagram posts, text messages, emails, recipes, anything and everything really. I’m starting to remind myself of that Twilight Zone episode, “Time Enough at Last” where the main character can never find enough time to read and then after an explosion leaves him alone on the planet along with an never-ending amount of books, he finally has all the time in the world, or so he thinks… Geez, I love that episode. Anyways! I recently read through an old journal of mine (you know, one of those journals that gives you prompts that will basically unlock your inner spirit animal). As I was reading through my past entries, I was reminded of how far I have come in some ways and how little I have in others. I started questioning myself, and instead of over analyzing and dissecting the MANY possible reasons I hadn’t achieved my lofty goals and then wanting to smash them into oblivion, I decided to accept the delay in achievement as reality and truth. I chose to show myself some grace (which by the way does not come easily for me). After accepting there were some things I could not change, I shifted my focus to what I could change. Things like, saying no to cleaning today and sitting down to write this post. Saying yes to sitting and playing on the floor with my boys even though my butt was numb after 10 minutes. Choosing to embrace the sunshine outside even though my very, very, pale self is not the happiest in it and my spirit feels cloudy today. But, I suppose that was an achievement in itself hu? I think I will end this most random of random posts with one of my favorite quotes:

“I write because I don’t know what I think until I read what I say.”

-Flannery O’Connor